There used to be more things here; articles and thoughts that I had that I shared with all of you, but those are gone now. They were more of a way to keep writing, just so that I was writing something, when I wasn’t writing what I love. Those posts weren’t disingenuous though, I did write them with the intention of being a person of influence. But after taking off from writing for about a year, I realized that the content that used to be here—the direction that I thought my writing was growing—wasn’t authentic to me as a writer because I’m a storyteller and not an op ed writer. I felt like I was forcing myself to write in a direction that wasn’t viable for me long term because it’s not the kind of writer that I am. What I thought was an evolutionary period in my writing was really just experimental and this is me formally saying that experiment is over.
Since becoming a father, I’ve had to recalibrate my life. My old routine doesn’t work for me anymore and it took me a long time to figure that out. I tried to get back into my old from by trying to fit back into my old routine but that was like trying to fit back into pants that are too small now and trying to make that work. Falling out of my normal routine produced a season of depression for me—it was a low, consistent drag on my life that I didn’t realize was there for months because I had just fallen into a new routine where I didn’t matter to myself as much as I used to. I was putting myself last. But that’s not to say it was a period of inactivity or a creative drought. I’ve had a lot of ideas actually, across a variety of platforms and creative outlets. I didn’t want to continue with the direction my writing was going because it’s not the best use of my creativity. So, I junked all of those articles that once appeared here because while they were cool, they’re not relevant. They’re not going to speak to the body of work that I had once, nor would they for what I have coming up. So, for me, a bit of rebranding may be in order… but those old articles had to be purged.
So what’s next? Presently I’m halfway through the first revision of a novel that I hope to have finished soon. It’s the first in at least three novels of a series that follows the protagonist through the lie of corporate America being the pathway to success as he tries to find happiness. In some ways it’s autobiographical, but for the most part it’s the same story that I see so many of us having because so many of us were told that going to college to get a good desk job was a better option than chasing our dreams. So I have that series in my mind and the first book is just getting the finishing touches. I also have a sci-fi series that I want to do about a space courier and the adventures he gets into. The first short story in that series is about 90% written and I’ll probably post it here when it’s done—maybe like a weekly series, chapter by chapter (at least until we can make it into a comic book or something else with some cool visuals). There’s a podcast that I want to do (but isn’t there always), a few actually, that I just need to find some time to dedicate to doing it/them. Whatever the case for creativity is, I’m working on them, so close to being able to share them with you, and really hoping for your support along the way. I think the shit that I write is cool, and I think you will too.